Firsts in 2006!

2006 marked a lot of firsts for me.. I can say 2006 rocked, for me, at least... The list is quite long.. il cut it short.. I hope I don’t forget the major incidents.. So here goes my list.. No particular order... I wrote what came to my mind first..

Ø Got my driving license for both car and geared two wheeler..[hey I can drive a bike!!! Guys watch out.. lol.. [rt now thinking about taking an auto and bus license too]

Ø Was allowed to take the car out alone, including to college, without my parents accompanying.:)

Ø Was allowed to go for movies with my friends.[superman first movie with my classmates and classmates first movie with uniymates:)]

Ø Joined uniy after a long time of procrastination.. for those who aren’t members u seriously r missing a lot.. but do understand my procrastination had a valid reason..

Ø At last had a school reunion which was put of umpteen no. of times… which was a real blast.. it was gr8 meeting old friends..

Ø Did my first group dance after coming to college…

Ø Participated for the first time in dhwani’06.. Best part was I was part of the team which came first in rangoli..[something I never even dreamed il ever take part in let alone win] So this also includes my first cash prize in an intercollegiate fest I think..

Ø This year included me orkutting for the first time.. I think it was during april or May.. Well this may sound insignificant… but orkut rocks!! coz I found my old friends including my first standard friends through orkut..:)

Ø Well I got MY first so sari (except for the kasavu sari I didn’t have another sari to b called my ownL) wore it without anyone’s help.. [ mind u… my grandma approved tat I know how to wear sari properly.. and its not easy to please her:)]

Ø Got my first bank account..[Account zero balance aaneee…no money needs to b put..;D][n ya I know biig deal, u all had one b4:)]

Ø Well I never had guys as my close friends till now other than in till primary[in primary teachers used to make me sit with boys coz I used to be a chatterbox... well it was too late wen they realized pattiude valu kozhalilitalum nereavoolla:D(for ppl who don’t understand Malayalam tat means even if u put a dog’s tail in a pipe it wont b stay straight or something like that, mallu proverb)]

Ø Wrote my first Kerala university exams and technically became a “senior” for at least some ppl in college [well this doesn’t fascinate me too much but still u got to say it all na..:)]

Ø First time stayin out more than once, just with my friends, for ymca meetings n for treats:P

Ø For the first time stayed out till 1:30 am for dhwani and after which my dad came to take us back home..… [how cud v leav without seeing our college especially mask’s dance? At least tat was our reason:D] Consequence of the previous mentioned there was the first sleepover at my house.. A1,A2,A3 and meeeeeeeeeeeeeee…… all flat in my living room…:D

Ø Last but not the least I started blogging..:)

When I remember more il write it….. So happy new year to everyone.. I suppose this will be my last post for the year 2006.. Hope my next year is eventful too.. Life ROCKS for me right now!!

PS:sorry that this post is slightly long..

Being busy

This blog is dedicated to R1 n R2 who asked me to cut my blogs short, to M2 who has told me that being busy is good and to S who does not care about what others, other than her friends, think about her.

Sindhya Kartha is always busy…that’s what everyone tells me..people who know me well know that I m busy not because I m a jada but because I m genuinely busy.. but people who don’t know me well tend to think that its because I m a jada.. why do u people think that way???? U don’t even know me.. how can u judge me??? People calling me a jada is something I hate and something which used to make me really hurt..

This really made me ask myself the qn: do I hav a people with people calling me a jada?? Should I really bother about it? For removing this so called jada image I stopped most of my activities for a while and reclined to my shell.. this did no good to anyone..it,personally, did a lot of harm to me.. only good it ever did was teach me a very valuable lesson in life which is the answer to my qn.. Y should I care??? I don’t need to prove to people that I m not a jada.. my real friends know that I m not a jada, its just that I m genuinely busy..they know that I m there for them when they need me..anyone can pretend that they r busy but its hard to be genuinely busy.. so this is for all those people who are said to be a jada coz they r busy:
KEEP BEING BUSY.. IF ANYONE SAYS U R A JADA JUS COZ U R BUSY ITS BECAUSE THEY DON’T KNOW U.. UR REAL FRIENDS KNOW THAT U R NOT A JADA... NO LAZY PERSON CAN CHANGE THE WORLD AND SO U AND ONLY U CAN CHANGE THIS WORLD.. !!! ROCK ON!![:D]

Whom would u love more the person who loves u or the person whom u love???

(ya, it was an sms again)
[NOTE:
1.these are purely my views..any resemblance of anything or anyone mentioned below to anyone or anything dead or alive is pure coincidental and totally ridiculous..:P
2.these views may or may not b correct, from a lot of people’s perspective,though u r all welcome to comment.]

first of all, I m sorry for not replying to the person(whoever it was) who send me this question coz this question made me think a lot..

(well this topic could b interpreted in a wide sense of the word as in parents love and all but I prefer to bring the question down to a guy loving/not loving a gal before marriage:D)

The moment I saw this sms my first reply was, of course, the person who loves me assuming tat I don’t find the guy repulsive..my reason was simple n straight:What’s the point in loving a person who doesn’t care for u??? The only thing, loving tat guy would do lead to, is misery.. But thinking again I was puzzled, was I being true to myself? Or was I just saying that for the sake of it??? Could I shun out my feelings just coz I THINK tat this would be better for me..Can I love someone even if I know I am in love with another person?? Well, being a person who goes by her heart more than her head I couldn’t be so insensitive to myown feelings… Noways… never… not in a million years… so what do I do?? Well.. one day I had a discussion with one of my friends about this.. Her reply was the same it’s a biig question, cant really answer this..

From now on the following short forms r used X is the person who loves me n Y is the person whom I love..thinking about it there are a lot of sides to this 2 sided coin..
1.Assuming tat the person X is someone I don’t even like the answer is simple: obviously I can’t love him… there is a lot to b said about a gal’s feelings especially wen the gal is me…:P
2.Assuming that the person Y is not a person I m not totally in love with n X isn’t a guy I wouldn’t mind loving, well then again answer is simple I will try not to love Y and to love X..
ohk… tat leaves me with the choice tat I love Y n I like X.. now tats the real question… whom do/can I love more?
If I love X I know the feeling will be mutual but can I stop loving Y? would I get over Y? but if I still love Y wouldn’t it be cheating on X and cheating myself too??
If I love Y, wats the point I know the love wouldn’t b reciprocated…no point in going after what u cant achieve even remotely??? Ya I agree wen u dream, u hav to dream biig.. But wake up!! life isn’t a dream, its reality!!!!

Conclusion: i have no idea wat i would do.. jab hoga thab dekha jayega...(agar hoga..):)

So now its time for u to think whom would u love more the person who loves u or the person whom u love????

Of course before I finish there is still a very optimistic perspective to all this..What if Y didn’t realize tat he loves me but later discovers, after some dramatic incident, tat he does? Tat means X=Y(ya I like math).. tat would be gr88.. also that would be too bollywood style..but too bad clichés n life don’t go together…:)

Some nice messages

Well some days before I was thinking about what to write in my blog not because of shortage of incidents…:D which is a huge number.. But coz I wanted to blog something serious.. ya I know…lol.. Well I got something.. Here are some smses(slightly edited) I received recently which I liked a lot..(Courtesy my friends) its too bad I didn’t think of it before coz I have deleted a lot of excellent mesgs due to the increased capacity of my gr8 mob.. so here r a few which I stored , think about each of them, every msg has something to say to u.. ya u..brace urselves:

Ø Everything in life has a beautiful ending…. If it isn’t beautiful, then be sure its still not the ending…

Ø Everyone hears what u say.. Friends listen to what u say.. Best friends listen to what u don’t say… silence is the real conversation between friends.. Not the saying but the never needing to say is what counts..

Ø Only eyes speak the truth, neither the mirror nor the lips.. Only the person who loves u can c pain in ur eyes while everyone else believes in ur smile..

Ø So often, you loose someone by saying “I love you” but more often you loose someone by fearing to say “I LOVE YOU” that’s the logic that nobody understands..

Ø Anyone can make u smile, and anyone can make u cry.. But it takes a special person to make u smile with tears in your eyes.. Don’t lose such people..

Ø We spend our days waiting for the ideal path to appear in front of us.. But what we forget is that, paths are made by walking, not by waiting!

Ø Life gives us answers in three ways.. it says yes and gives u what u want, it says no and gives u something better, it says wait and gives u the best!

Ø Do not lose ur head in success n heart in failure..


PS: il put in more memorable quotes as soon as I get enough of them

Pre-first-blog blog!

This is my third post(2nd actual one). so if u havent read the other one please do and comment on it.

The idea to start a blog came from one of my best friends in class R. Thank u R..(and ya R. i AM being formal..:P) and i think one of the first blogs i hav read is by my classmate,which was really great.It was an inspiration for me to start a blog of my own.The reason why i made a blogger account was mainly due to uniy, coz i needed an id to post comments in it:), well i didnt have much intention of starting an individual blog then..

On october 31 2006 i made my official entry into individual blogging..after that its been empty till today:).Actually the reason why i didnt post anything was coz i wasnt gettin anything to write on at times when i had time to do it and ideas were flooding at other times when i didnt have time:(. so then i came up with a brilliant solution: i will write in a paper what i wanted to post and then type it in.So one day during a free time in class i took my pen and my rough book to write and ended up just scribbling the words"friendship". At that time i wished i could finish of the blog with just that one word:).well my pride told me i cant give up that easily.So i tried next day to write what i wanted to in a word document. I dont think i have to explain that even that didnt work.:) In between i got the sms mentioned in the previous blog, which i thought was perfect for what i was writing about, so saved it in my mob whose memory was almost full. :)

Now about two weeks went by with me just having a topic,a draft copy with just the title n the first line and that sms. Yesterday one of my friends called me n asked me to update the blog then i promised her that i will do it yesterday itself.A promise is a promise. I tried to keep my word. :D

Night 10:30:There was a lot of thunder n lightning outside.Amma asked me why i wanted to go online now somehow managed to convince her that i was bored to death,ultimately she agreed.i came online wanted to chat with someone or other. Was very happy when i saw the status that about 7 people were online. But to my greatest sorrow i saw that 6/7 were on sms!(oh why did messenger allow people to be online on their mobs?)well at least one good friend of mine was online, thought of chatting. When i opened the chat window to chat i saw the message"(person) is now offline)"( crap! thank u to one uniyian for teaching me that word, i am really using it often now:))frustrated seeing that none else was available i logged in to orkut. saw that some of my friends were online. Ok, at least scrapping and chattin is possible. so scrapped 4-5 people who were as the orkut window showed online. Got about two replies each from 2 people n well thank u A3 for scrapping 4-5 times:). Then, since i was "available" in messenger one of my friends came n said a sort of hi rather asked me about how my studies for tomorrow's series was going on. then i started to chat with that person.10-15mins into the chat my net connection decided to play the role of my parent and decided its time for me to stop chatting..ie i got dced. :((

Checked the clock in the dining room..yup time was 11:15. Tried reconnecting, but my dear net connection was adamant. Got really frustrated. Ok, so brilliant idea number 2 struck:i will finish my blog today no matter what time it is. (Wish the brilliant idea was more like i will go and finish off my studies today no matter what time.:P coz series tomorrow and university on 27th, ya 27th november) Well i didnt study anything yesterday a sheer waste of a perfectly free day. So, i started typing my post in the Word.Then i saw Amma who had dragged herself from her sleep to check what i was doing till this time, told her that i was blogging.First she said ok then started advicing me about how my priorities are changing n how i wasted the morning n now wasting the night too(yes mom, i know u are right but this is one thing i really really want to finish, do understand and i know u are saying all this coz u love me a lot.:))

1:15 am: finished writing my blog in MS word and cut n copied it to the blogger. Keeping my fingers crossed i tried to reconnect. aah net connection u are the gr8est, u really want to make me miserable na(no connection again:(:(:().Sad and angry, i went to bed, but didnt feel like sleeping coz my first blog is ready but not posted:(. decided i will post it today at about 10am when according to my plans i was supposed to have a break.(ya well my plans always stop at the drawing board.)

6:25am:got up n sat on the bed.well i always pray before i get up from bed, its a habit.(sometimes i even fall back to sleep while praying:P..no disrespect meant to the gods.)today well i prayed real hard that i should have a good day and then chalked out a timetable for the day:cpp from 7-9am ssd after that etc..

6:35am:got up from bed n i went to my room (dad is not here for the time being so i was sleeping in their room) to put my mobile on the charger that is when i got a call from V. conversation was something like this..

V:"hey, evide ethuvare ellarum vannitilla..(no one has come here yet)"

My first reaction was what when where? was there a combined study planned? i didnt know???

me: "entha?(wat?)"

V:"innu tuition illa ennu sir paranjirunno?(did sir say that there was no tuition today?)than evideya(where r u)?

me:" ayyo innu monday aano(oh, is today monday)?? tuition undalle(tuition is there right)? njan maranu poyi(i forgot)! i m home...:(

[**for all those people who think that i was stupid to forget that it was monday, today is a holiday in college. monday=first day of the week to go to college. its not my fault:P and well this is the first time i m late for any class i think:)]

V:"wat?so varunille(arent u coming?)"

me:"ya i m coming in 15 mins".
call ended..

I was completely nuts(ya ya i already am wat more, right?? well this was nuts^infinity)i didnt kno what to do. i told amma that i had to go for tuition right then.. n she was looking at me with a how-can-u-be-so-careless n how-cud-u-forget-it looks. :(well thank god she didnt say anything, i dont like getting scolding early in the morning, it spoils my mood completely n everything goes wrong. .

So i brushed my teeth, put on the first dress i got, took my mobile,took the books n got the activa key n literally ran out of my house. Seeing the way i was running amma was really afraid if i would drive too fast and get into an accident.(for all those guys who think "fast" for a girl is 40kmph u havent to many girl drivers) Well, i was getting a lot of stares from people who were looking like how can a girl drive this fast? well its gud that there was one more girl in another activa who was driving as fast in front of me.(maybe she was also late for some tuition:))

7am:Ultimately somehow i reached the 6:30am tuition at 7:05am:D.Seeing me come this late, sir gave me a slight frosty-nosed stare, and i smiled my best sheepish smile:).At last sir allowed me to get in. what is the point? there was no seat,ultimately adjusted somewhere. oh damn, i forgot to call amma n tell her i reached.so took my mobile out in the cover itself n called amma. it was meant to be a missed call to say i reached but amma took the fone:(...ya,my talktime reduced...(Yes, i m a miser when its comes to calling from my mobile,though i m not so much a miser with smses.ya, most of my friends know that:D)Aah!!!The class sounded like greek to me in the begining coz i hadn't touched the notes after the last class:D.About 10mins into the class i got the groove of what was being taught.:)(Phew! wat a relief!)

8:15am: Sir said class was over.A2. and M. said sir we have this portion for series so we need the notes.(oh dears not today, i know u are right but,i have to reach home asap coz i have brought my mom's activa with me:() So, started writing down the notes which V. was dictating.

8:35am:Class over. I said a quick bye to everyone and ran out(ya i day of too much running). Steps: well never thought they also had a grudge against me or was it my shoes calling a strike???well, what i recollect was i was walking/semi-sprinting and my leg decided that it wants the heel of my left shoes on one step and well my toe tip wasnt comfortable with that coz it wanted to reach the next. I guess you can imagine what happened next. i could see sir's wife(i think she is sir's wife) with sir's son( a really cute child about 2-3 years old) downstairs and the next thing i knew the child's level seemed to hav shifted up or my level had shifted down. By the time i got my senses reacting all i knew was that i had an excruciating pain in my left leg and i was sitting on the platform between two steps(thank goodness for the platform, otherwise i would have known exactly how jack felt when he came down the hill).i had skipped two steps..:).Aah well, the pain and the embarrassment(coz classes were going on near the steps) was really wonderful:) Somehow after 2mins i got up by myself and started descending the rest of the steps.My only thought then was to get the activa home b4 8:45.One of my friends at tuition was there behind me she asked me if i was fine and the only answer i could process and give was "ya,ya fine fine":)(Ya right, who was i kidding?i was soo fine that i was in a half-limp:))actually the whole incident seems funny thats the main reason why i though of posting this in the blog. :)

And then somehow i got on my activa.By then my friends had come down.A1 was the first one to come out, and i told her that i sprained my leg.A1 asked how and i said i fell down the step.A1's second question was something like "marinjiadichano veeno(did u tumble n fall down)?"That made me forget the pain and i laughed..:) she was really serious about the question that was the best part..its nice to be able to laugh when you are sad..thanks A1 for the laugh... :)And then somehow i came home.I didnt want to tell Amma coz she had to reach office by 9 i dont like making anyone late due to a silly reason.But my mom, being my best friend knows my expressions completely. Amma guessed as much that something was wrong with me. She thought i might have fallen from the scooter somewhere coz i was late in the morning(well me falling down from the scooter had happened only once since the time i started driving (no, its not a short period)..during a rain due to a guy coming in the opposite direction crossing over to my side of the road.just scratches then). So i told her what had happened.(and mom dont be so scared.. i know its natural for a parent but still..) Well she put some ointment and tried tying the bandage about 3-4 times before it was comfortable for me.

9:00am: I told amma to go to office.. But she was like you are more important to me(how sweet ma, i wish everyone had a mom like you..ya i know u'l say i m buttering u.. but i swear i am not.. look at my innocent face>:)) Well, she was saying she'd take a leave for me or at least come at noon for lunch.. i ultimately managed to convince her that i was ok and pushed her off to office..:)after that well i started to read something in ssd n then being very much intrested in ssd,i thought i'd finish of my yday's endeavour and then start the next. so here i m blogging, when i should be resting and studying.. And at last my second post is up and this is being typed. well, hope you had fun reading my great pre-first-blog blog..

Friends and friendship for me....

Ohk..now i start my first real post.. This is about the people who are the most significant in my life my friends..

I will start with this note:"My friends are the greatest in the world!!!"

Well ya,my friends are the greatest in the world which includes my mom….Everyone is allowed to boast about something or other, right? And well,this is what I m boasting about this:). Its nice to have such good caring friends..For all those people who cant understand what I am trying to say I can put it like this, if it weren’t for my friends, I would have never gone to uniy(which is by the way ,not one of the, but THE greatest places to be at!! No wonder why almost all uniyians blog about something or the other related to uniy:)), I would have never started blogging (for all those people who are smiling right now..ya you were responsible:)) my college-life(which is without a doubt gr8)n school-life(every moment of which was too good) wouldn’t have been this fun, in fact, u people make my life a joy to live!!!thank u..( n well I m not being formal:P) i m really fortunate to have u all as my true friends....

So then what does friendship mean to me?

I got an sms some days back from a good friend of mine which said:

"Friendship means a little heart that never hates, a quiet smile that never fades, a smooth touch that never shakes, a strong relationship that never breaks!!!..."

Ya.. to put in a single line that is what friendship means to me..Friends always have a heart that can never hate u.Well, even if someone says he/she hates his/her friend due to some reason it doesn’t mean that that person really hates the other person completely. It means that that person doesn’t like the bad quality/character of the other person or even what the other person did. I don’t think its humanly possible for someone to hate a once-upon-a-time close friend. And well smile is one of the best gifts that u can present someone[unless u are a guy are taking out his girlfriends out on a early-in-the-relationship date without even a penny in his pockets, smile woudnt work there buddy! :P(vice versa also if it is possible)]well in general smile can melt hearts n sometimes provide the strength that another heart needs. So I recommend, like one of my friends says: “Keep smiling.”:). Friendship is definitely a tender touch that touches and bonds a lot of hearts. So, well as a conclusion it is definitely a strong relationship which never breaks. Its one of the most important relationships, so never neglect it….

Well there is a small story about friends and me..(ya u will have to read the story.)When I was little I was a complete extrovert (some people may say I still am n some others may say I m not anymore) and so, didn’t have any problem with talking to anyone anywhere. At that time I used to make a loooooot of friends, but the depths of my friendships with most, were shallow (or sometimes my judgement about my friends weren’t right).One or two incidents made me realize the need to have true friends: friend that really care about u, friends who are really there for u n who would welcome your being there for them.well now I m glad to say that yes my friends are true. Well, my gang of friends in cllass: A.,A.,A.,A.,A.,M.,R.,V.,(oh I didn’t realize 5/9 in the gang had names starting with A.i guess I m so used to calling the initials/surnames of 3 A.s)they are really true friends in the strict sense of the word. . glad to have u guys as my friends.. all of you are so different yet soo same..(ya I know I m contradicting myself but that’s the way it is)its always memorable to remember the time I had with u people especially our s12 tour,dhwani 06 nite out to see our college dance performance, n of course the gr8 time we had in my house on one strike day,remember?

Well thank u to R,A1,n V. for getting me into blogging, thank u A2 for asking me to post asap. N well thank u to some of my seniors n some uniyians for inspiring me n encouraging me to blog.. thank u to some of my friends in other colleges too for,again, inspiring me. If I have missed out anyone its not intentional.. (well, I think I shud try my hand at writing a thank u speech for the winner of the oscars:P)

So as u can see, friendship means a lot to me. It’s my friends who take me to a world which otherwise I wouldn’t have explored. Being a single child, my friends were the closest thing I have had to siblings. They are the ones who share my sorrows and my joys and also give me good advices. Of course they are also the ones who tease me n criticize a lot..:P It is a cardinal rule for me that my friends should remain true. Don’t ask me how I will find out if they are true coz even I don’t kno:)Well right now, I have lot of friends in a lot of places especially my college(which has the gr8est set of students incl me:P) and at uniy. Seriously college is really fun with such friends n such gr8 seniors(ya ya I m soapifying everyone:D).n well what to say about uniy its one place which I enjoy going to.


PS:All my good friends are people whom I open up to. So if anyone feels that I m very formal,get to know me better,talk to me and I will definitely change your opinion:DFor all those people who doubt if I consider u as my friend, don’t doubt anymore I don’t consider anyone as my enemy,ya even people I don’t like:P.. lol….

my first blog!

hello every1.. this is my first blog..
a lot of people were involved in making me a blogger..Many pestered me to start a blog..n i know a lot people who have written really really good blogs..keeping them as role-models now i m starting a blog too.. hope every1 forgives the mistakes i make n helps me in become better at this..
my next blog will be about my friends including my mom..they r the people who make my life best..they ARE the Dew drops of my life..
so until then adios..

PS:i'd like to mention here that if my blog resembles any other blog its by coincidence..i hav no intention of copying anything.. my topics may b general so there r chances of resemblence..n most of the topics wil be related to my daily life..i hope all of u would help me in my endeavour to become a good blogger..:)