At last i have been tagged:D

Aaah well at last.. i have been tagged for the first time.. by freebird..

1.Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it:

Well the only scar that i can think of is the one near my eyebrow.. (not that visible now..) that was the result of my stubbornness... i still haven't learnt my lesson... :D dad was working in Calcutta(Kolkata now) n it was just mom n 7 year old me.. i had a fetish for cycle riding one day.. i had a biiiiiiiig (or at least it seemed so then) second hand cycle then.. anyone who knows me now also knows my love for driving whether its car or scooter...

it was kinda the same then also but the only difference was then i couldn't handle a bike/scooter... n well v didn't have a car then..thank god:D(or i would have rammed that into the first pole i could find then:D) by the way i was soooooo big tat my legs wouldn't reach the ground if i sat on the cycle:D.. so for me to stop someone would have to hold the cycle from behind.. it was usually my dad who did tat.. but since my mom n i were only there i forced my mom to come with me as my official "cycle-stopper"... she told me a loot of times that she wont be able to run that fast but would i listen?:D.. 
got the cycle to the road at last..:) starting was smooth.. i pedalled on.. gained speed.. then more speed... then more speed... i was on flying:D..next thing  i know i was at edge of a canal..(ekm area has toooooooo many canals):D.. i guess what happened is obvious..mom couldn't run at the speed i was riding n she lost her grip.. i couldn't stop wen i wanted to.. n i lost control...well coming back scar was due to falling at the edge of the cemented canal.. the cement was 
rough so

it cut my skin... no further injuries though... n for all those who thought tat was the end of my cycle 

riding days... u r sadly mistaken...:D

2.What does your phone look like?
phone...hmm... my mob is nokia.. 1112.. basic set... navy blue border.. silver around the screen.. with a NOKIA written across it.. no cover.. ya well tats abt it..
my precious sidekick:D
i m addicted to it.. had it not been for hutch taking away all good offers it'l still be disturbing people:D

3.What is on the walls of your bedroom?

Lots n lots of posters... dad always gets me such posters.. so also a lot of other people.. there is one abc's of happiness above my so-called "study table"(which is seldom used as even a table let alone study on it).. near my bed there are 3 posters..1.ten commandments of something(success)i think... 2. My mom(its a small kid's poem) 3. positive thinking.. on the opposite wall there is a comparatively bigger poster which has a real beautiful landscape and a quote "reach for the joy tat rises with every morning sun":)

4.What is your current desktop picture?
This is gonna seem childish... but its an anime.. sakura the cardcaptor with kerobaros(kero) the protector of the cards...:) i loved this anime series once upon a time.. well put it up as my desktop wen i my orkut account also had the same display image.. dint change it even when that changed..
                                                                    
5. Do you believe in gay marriage?
If a person chooses that he is in love with another guy.. then none should prevent them from being 
together legally... marraige is a social institution that humans have brought abt.. and it shouldn't be restricted to people who are supposedly "straight".. i don't find any reason why gays  shouldn't be "married"..

6.What do you want more than anything right now?
Well right now... personally i think i have messed up my life more than it needs to be...:D and i want to get back on track.. get back to my abnormally normal self.. also wish i didn't have college tomo... i m sleepy its as simple as tat..:D

7. What time were you born?
I think it was sometime around 10:25am.. or thats what i heard my mom say.. never bothered to remember the exact timing:D

8.Are your parents still together?
Define "together".. :D well i was just kidding... ya they are together.. thank goodness to that...

9.Last person who made you cry?
hehe... well good qn.. would say myself:D don't laugh... i m serious.. feeling bad about how i made a lot of stupid decisions and conclusions.. ended up messing up my life and made ppl close to me sad...at times i think my decisions were stupid but then i dont feel that  way always.. 'coz wen i took them i was positive they were right..

10. What is your favourite perfume / cologne?
ahem... i know what a perfume is..i use it too... but i don't know any particular special type of perfume :D

11.What kinds of hair/eye color do you like in the opposite sex?
hair colour:Whatever suits that guy.. who bothers about what hair colour as long as the guy looks good in total :P
eye colour:blue eyes look sooooo cute:D but this again as b4 i would say depending on the guy...

12.What are you listening to?
Right now... "Breakaway" by Kelly Clarkson.. i love this song... i have currently put my itunes in shuffle.. and now its linkin park "somewhere i belong"... contrast maybe.. but i like both pop n rock and everything in between...:D


13.Do you get scared of the dark?
Well i don't remember the last time it was pitch black.. but on other times wen it was dark my eyes got adjusted to the light(or the lack of it i should say).. and so i haven't been scared of darkness... also i guess being an only child when parents are out of town i have to get used to being alone in darkness...:)

14.Do you like painkillers?
Well i have taken dart when i have real bad headaches that i cannot sleep and also one pain killer for the time wen 4 of my teeth were extracted.. but other than that..till now(that i can remember) even if i m asked to take ibuprofen or stuff more powerful than that for anything i haven't... 

15.Are you too shy to ask someone out?
No.. if i know for certain i LOVE a guy(and can't live without him) i'l tell him directly... Fortunately god has spared me the embarrassment of ever having to get turned down til now...:)

16.If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
Right now.. not hungry.. i have my tea in front of me n i m still reconsidering whether i should drink it or tell my mom i don't want it... unless its time or any of the three courses of food i don't want to right now.. and nooooooooo its not 'coz i m dieting.. i cannot diet.. need food wen i am hungry:D

17.Who was the last person that made you mad?
Mad as in???
well if its angry.. then its one of my best friends.. 'coz of reasons known to that person..well i was mad then.. but it seems i shouldn't have reacted that way.. i m sorry..
mad as in nuts.. well same person again.. for a reason related to that reason... i don't wish to disclose so don't bother asking.. :)

18.Who was the last person who made you smile?
last person well... technically last person i chatted with who made me smile was dhirajji... but i guess after that this question made me smile too...so partial credit to freebird :)

ohkkkkkkkkkk now that that is done... time for me to do the honours of tagging the ppl below :D
abhay, govind, muni, and gayatri..

Jus life!

I m a person who puts my head before my heart.. if u had read my previous post u would understand what i meant..
At times i feel that it would have been better if my heart had taken control of my thoughts and prevented me from doing the "right" thing... But sometimes wish my heart would never raise its voice when it wasn't needed...Sounds a little too weird but i m just putting my thoughts to words... When u do certain things you don't think of the implications coz you just assume its gonna be OK.. Even when there is a gut instinct which tells u don't do it.. Its when you look back later on and ponder on it that u realize you always knew that this was going to happen..
Wish somethings never happened and wish i could hide my emotions from people i love..Wish someone could tell me what i did was right other than the person concerned.. its when my heart and head work together that i have a conflict and end up hurting people.. yes i have hurt a lot of people at various times..But i have hurt myself more when i cant suppress my heart when simultaneously my head is doing the thinking...Well in conclusion i still would go with my head coz i don't want others to get hurt coz of me... At least to the maximum extent that i can i don't want to hurt another person.. But i still think i m lucky coz ultimately its what the person i hurt feels and i m glad things haven't changed for the worse...

My sun sign...the archer

My blog has been kinda dry since 2k7 started.. once again lack of events isnt the factor its lack of time to blog... very bad blogger i know... so this post is one thing that kinda made me think, i got the following from astrolife.com

Sagittarius :
Upfront, direct action or speech is your response to life which you always want to be a constant adventure. You dash into high speed gear regardless of the consequences assuming your luck will hold out which it usually does. The third of the fire signs, you are cheerful, restless, optimistic, a deep thinker, energetic, confident, adaptable but not always practical or realistic. Next to talking and thinking about life in its broader aspects, you love to roam, being stimulated by travel and intrigued by foreign cultures. Along with Virgo and Gemini, you're really mainly about communication since you have acute observations about people, love to swap ideas, and are a great hander on of useful information to others. Always well intentioned, you can still be honest in your comments and opinions to a degree which makes more sensitive souls wince. Ruled by lucky Jupiter, you have a permanent guardian angel present, ready to rescue you from tight corners. In your life there is always a silver lining no matter how dark the cloud. Possibly the most popular of the signs, you radiate good humour, brush aside difficulties and bounce back from problems with a laugh.

that is supposed to be my sun sign... how true is it???? well that question cannot be answered much by me.. itl b u all who hav to comment on it... so do comment... n for all those ppl who wanted a short post this is short..[:P] hope to update my blog without this much delay next time..

Firsts in 2006!

2006 marked a lot of firsts for me.. I can say 2006 rocked, for me, at least... The list is quite long.. il cut it short.. I hope I don’t forget the major incidents.. So here goes my list.. No particular order... I wrote what came to my mind first..

Ø Got my driving license for both car and geared two wheeler..[hey I can drive a bike!!! Guys watch out.. lol.. [rt now thinking about taking an auto and bus license too]

Ø Was allowed to take the car out alone, including to college, without my parents accompanying.:)

Ø Was allowed to go for movies with my friends.[superman first movie with my classmates and classmates first movie with uniymates:)]

Ø Joined uniy after a long time of procrastination.. for those who aren’t members u seriously r missing a lot.. but do understand my procrastination had a valid reason..

Ø At last had a school reunion which was put of umpteen no. of times… which was a real blast.. it was gr8 meeting old friends..

Ø Did my first group dance after coming to college…

Ø Participated for the first time in dhwani’06.. Best part was I was part of the team which came first in rangoli..[something I never even dreamed il ever take part in let alone win] So this also includes my first cash prize in an intercollegiate fest I think..

Ø This year included me orkutting for the first time.. I think it was during april or May.. Well this may sound insignificant… but orkut rocks!! coz I found my old friends including my first standard friends through orkut..:)

Ø Well I got MY first so sari (except for the kasavu sari I didn’t have another sari to b called my ownL) wore it without anyone’s help.. [ mind u… my grandma approved tat I know how to wear sari properly.. and its not easy to please her:)]

Ø Got my first bank account..[Account zero balance aaneee…no money needs to b put..;D][n ya I know biig deal, u all had one b4:)]

Ø Well I never had guys as my close friends till now other than in till primary[in primary teachers used to make me sit with boys coz I used to be a chatterbox... well it was too late wen they realized pattiude valu kozhalilitalum nereavoolla:D(for ppl who don’t understand Malayalam tat means even if u put a dog’s tail in a pipe it wont b stay straight or something like that, mallu proverb)]

Ø Wrote my first Kerala university exams and technically became a “senior” for at least some ppl in college [well this doesn’t fascinate me too much but still u got to say it all na..:)]

Ø First time stayin out more than once, just with my friends, for ymca meetings n for treats:P

Ø For the first time stayed out till 1:30 am for dhwani and after which my dad came to take us back home..… [how cud v leav without seeing our college especially mask’s dance? At least tat was our reason:D] Consequence of the previous mentioned there was the first sleepover at my house.. A1,A2,A3 and meeeeeeeeeeeeeee…… all flat in my living room…:D

Ø Last but not the least I started blogging..:)

When I remember more il write it….. So happy new year to everyone.. I suppose this will be my last post for the year 2006.. Hope my next year is eventful too.. Life ROCKS for me right now!!

PS:sorry that this post is slightly long..

Being busy

This blog is dedicated to R1 n R2 who asked me to cut my blogs short, to M2 who has told me that being busy is good and to S who does not care about what others, other than her friends, think about her.

Sindhya Kartha is always busy…that’s what everyone tells me..people who know me well know that I m busy not because I m a jada but because I m genuinely busy.. but people who don’t know me well tend to think that its because I m a jada.. why do u people think that way???? U don’t even know me.. how can u judge me??? People calling me a jada is something I hate and something which used to make me really hurt..

This really made me ask myself the qn: do I hav a people with people calling me a jada?? Should I really bother about it? For removing this so called jada image I stopped most of my activities for a while and reclined to my shell.. this did no good to anyone..it,personally, did a lot of harm to me.. only good it ever did was teach me a very valuable lesson in life which is the answer to my qn.. Y should I care??? I don’t need to prove to people that I m not a jada.. my real friends know that I m not a jada, its just that I m genuinely busy..they know that I m there for them when they need me..anyone can pretend that they r busy but its hard to be genuinely busy.. so this is for all those people who are said to be a jada coz they r busy:
KEEP BEING BUSY.. IF ANYONE SAYS U R A JADA JUS COZ U R BUSY ITS BECAUSE THEY DON’T KNOW U.. UR REAL FRIENDS KNOW THAT U R NOT A JADA... NO LAZY PERSON CAN CHANGE THE WORLD AND SO U AND ONLY U CAN CHANGE THIS WORLD.. !!! ROCK ON!![:D]

Whom would u love more the person who loves u or the person whom u love???

(ya, it was an sms again)
[NOTE:
1.these are purely my views..any resemblance of anything or anyone mentioned below to anyone or anything dead or alive is pure coincidental and totally ridiculous..:P
2.these views may or may not b correct, from a lot of people’s perspective,though u r all welcome to comment.]

first of all, I m sorry for not replying to the person(whoever it was) who send me this question coz this question made me think a lot..

(well this topic could b interpreted in a wide sense of the word as in parents love and all but I prefer to bring the question down to a guy loving/not loving a gal before marriage:D)

The moment I saw this sms my first reply was, of course, the person who loves me assuming tat I don’t find the guy repulsive..my reason was simple n straight:What’s the point in loving a person who doesn’t care for u??? The only thing, loving tat guy would do lead to, is misery.. But thinking again I was puzzled, was I being true to myself? Or was I just saying that for the sake of it??? Could I shun out my feelings just coz I THINK tat this would be better for me..Can I love someone even if I know I am in love with another person?? Well, being a person who goes by her heart more than her head I couldn’t be so insensitive to myown feelings… Noways… never… not in a million years… so what do I do?? Well.. one day I had a discussion with one of my friends about this.. Her reply was the same it’s a biig question, cant really answer this..

From now on the following short forms r used X is the person who loves me n Y is the person whom I love..thinking about it there are a lot of sides to this 2 sided coin..
1.Assuming tat the person X is someone I don’t even like the answer is simple: obviously I can’t love him… there is a lot to b said about a gal’s feelings especially wen the gal is me…:P
2.Assuming that the person Y is not a person I m not totally in love with n X isn’t a guy I wouldn’t mind loving, well then again answer is simple I will try not to love Y and to love X..
ohk… tat leaves me with the choice tat I love Y n I like X.. now tats the real question… whom do/can I love more?
If I love X I know the feeling will be mutual but can I stop loving Y? would I get over Y? but if I still love Y wouldn’t it be cheating on X and cheating myself too??
If I love Y, wats the point I know the love wouldn’t b reciprocated…no point in going after what u cant achieve even remotely??? Ya I agree wen u dream, u hav to dream biig.. But wake up!! life isn’t a dream, its reality!!!!

Conclusion: i have no idea wat i would do.. jab hoga thab dekha jayega...(agar hoga..):)

So now its time for u to think whom would u love more the person who loves u or the person whom u love????

Of course before I finish there is still a very optimistic perspective to all this..What if Y didn’t realize tat he loves me but later discovers, after some dramatic incident, tat he does? Tat means X=Y(ya I like math).. tat would be gr88.. also that would be too bollywood style..but too bad clichés n life don’t go together…:)

Some nice messages

Well some days before I was thinking about what to write in my blog not because of shortage of incidents…:D which is a huge number.. But coz I wanted to blog something serious.. ya I know…lol.. Well I got something.. Here are some smses(slightly edited) I received recently which I liked a lot..(Courtesy my friends) its too bad I didn’t think of it before coz I have deleted a lot of excellent mesgs due to the increased capacity of my gr8 mob.. so here r a few which I stored , think about each of them, every msg has something to say to u.. ya u..brace urselves:

Ø Everything in life has a beautiful ending…. If it isn’t beautiful, then be sure its still not the ending…

Ø Everyone hears what u say.. Friends listen to what u say.. Best friends listen to what u don’t say… silence is the real conversation between friends.. Not the saying but the never needing to say is what counts..

Ø Only eyes speak the truth, neither the mirror nor the lips.. Only the person who loves u can c pain in ur eyes while everyone else believes in ur smile..

Ø So often, you loose someone by saying “I love you” but more often you loose someone by fearing to say “I LOVE YOU” that’s the logic that nobody understands..

Ø Anyone can make u smile, and anyone can make u cry.. But it takes a special person to make u smile with tears in your eyes.. Don’t lose such people..

Ø We spend our days waiting for the ideal path to appear in front of us.. But what we forget is that, paths are made by walking, not by waiting!

Ø Life gives us answers in three ways.. it says yes and gives u what u want, it says no and gives u something better, it says wait and gives u the best!

Ø Do not lose ur head in success n heart in failure..


PS: il put in more memorable quotes as soon as I get enough of them